by intfan » November 10th, 2021, 4:52 am
I just masturbated to gay porn after listening to CFG. I orgasmed and ejaculated a lot of semen. Normally, I would normally feel shame about having cummed to gay videos and think "oh my, what have I done?", but now I feel at peace with myself. My natural instincts are becoming more and more homosexual and my heterosexuality is withering away. I've lost interest in vagina and breasts and now, women's faces no longer get my attention like they used to by inclination.
I now want to avoid having sex with my wife going forward, especially if I will be masturbating to gay porn more often and I might not be up to the task of penetrating her. I know what I am saying here sounds cruel, but my wife has been distant as of late anyway. Perhaps she can sense the changes going inside of me, or maybe she needs some space, or perhaps she is not as attracted to me like she used to be. Maybe she needs a "real" man to give her company and sexual pleasure.
I suppose I could listen to other hypnosis videos to turn me back, but the truth is, I like feeling this way. I enjoy being attracted to men and I am perfectly happy not being attracted to women any longer.