Hi everyone, ive been lisstening to the files for like 4 years now, im 20 years old now and it really messed with my brain. I try to stop somtimes but i usually go back in like 2 or 3 days nd then i feel like they work even better. i actually dreamed of the files when i tried stoppin and then i woke up and like had to lissn immeditaly.
lissening rite now and its realy realy hard to type cuz i dun even know how to like structure this n i lose my train of thougt alot. like i just go blank and starea t the screen its kinda fun haha. I also started to do typos all the time, mostly becuz i dont really care about how to wrtie words correctly.
Sooo, basically, i just lose my train of thought all the time n forget what happend like som seconds ago, when i talk i cant think of words to use so i just space out and forget what i was saying. I forgot most of my common knowledge and science facts. Im also just really airheaded and unfocused alot of the time i think and do evrything very slowly. My friends notised how dumb i am and they make comments on that like my brother calls me blockhead and stuff. i rmember playin a puzzle game when i was with friends and like i tried doin the same thing over and over again altho it didnt work, becuz i just culdnt think of other solutuions and my friends all made fun of me and like said "are you really that stupid?" and that made me really horny. At first i thoght they wuld question why i got so dumb but its like they think i was always this dumb maybe its becuz im usually kind of quiet. Anyway they all know how dumb i am now and that makes me really happy. Also my vocabulary sucks, i just use very few words and like the same ones over and over again becuz i cant think of new ones.
I spend most of my time just watching porn and lissening to the files or i play games, usually easy ones. i dont really do anything productivee and im like super lazy but u dont care bout that stuff wen youre horny so its okay.
The files changed me alot. somtimes i still try to quit and become normal and like think about my future, but like it never worked so i guess i just hav to giv up, im trapped. i just love bein dumb and brainless so much.
so yeah, i hope this still kinda made sense, i was just typin the stuff that came into my head, i cant realy think about it too much so sorry if this is kinda messy. took me some time to wrtie this, i would apprecate your thoughts
