by StrippedGears » August 4th, 2017, 1:14 am
SKBSis, the mind is a lot like the body when it comes to fitness. A person that exercises all the time will tend to be more fit than someone that never exercises at all. Someone that grew up eating well and staying active will have an easier time eating well and staying active than someone that ate nothing but junk food and sat around watching TV all the time until they were 16 years old.
But where a lot of things like how easily your body burns off fat or how tall you'll get when you're done growing will tend to "lock in" by the end of puberty, the critical years for the mind are immediately after puberty through the early 20's.
It's during the mid teenage years through the early 20s that the brain goes through a lot of development that will determine how easily you learn new things, how well you'll be able to read, or do math, or even how well you'll be able to think through problems or predict reasonable consequences of your actions.
You mentioned that your grades have suffered, so I'll guess you're either in high school or college, which means you're definitely in the most important time in your brain's development since before you could talk. If a person stayed in bed and ate nothing but potato chips for two years during the peak of puberty, they would have done to their body what you've done to your brain. There is no "reversing the effects" of that. Just like a bedridden, chip-eating teenager would struggle to keep weight off their entire life, if you did try to get your vocabulary, motivation, attention span, and other aspects of your intelligence back you would have to work at it constantly to get back what you lost and keep it from just slipping away again. And the temptation to go back to the files will always be there, and you already know that they'll work better and better every time.
So you have two choices, really. Either avoid the files, finish school, and work your ass off to just be "normal" (and you can probably eliminate any hope of ever being thought of as "smart" as-is), or you can just accept that you've already done damage to your brain that probably can never be undone.
For what it's worth, while you might not have been like this without the hypnosis, you're like this now. This is you. You said you feel happy? That's good. You should be happy about who you are. And since you'll never be "smart" and "normal" will be a ton of work, you may as well just let yourself be as happy and horny as you can be.