by Cruise-Control » January 9th, 2016, 10:11 am
Glory, why would you want to continue to listen to the file if it's causing you spiritual and emotional pain to attempt this conversion?
You answered why to 'transformed' on the second page:
"Why I am doing this now? Probably Mr Right is somehow delayed and me getting bored with just sex I want to play with really 'kinky' thoughts as to whether we can have more straight men playing around with becoming gay and more gay men playing around with becoming straight."
But now I ask why are you continuing, 2 months later when it is still causing you pain? You have to be who you are because that's what the world needs and that's what your soul needs... right?
Look at what you have said in this thread:
"Men I adore their smell, energies, attitudes, philosophy of being , bodies, personalities and their very essence. Maleness is sacred, benevolent, protective, wise, strong, pleasurable, loving and giving."
and
"Last but not least men are amazing creatures, very well balanced, benevolent, in tune with their essence and very giving. So, this very rare chance of appreciating them even more should be received as the amazing gift that it is and that men are to the world in general."
Wow... when I read that, I was amazed. You know yourself and you know that deep appreciation and love you have. If you know it so well, why try so hard to change it? That love is something coming from the spirit. I feel that womannessis sacred in the same way. I didn't realize that same attraction comes from the same place in a gay man, just towards maleness instead. My point is though, if you have such a grand appreciation and such clear self knowledge, why not just be yourself and have that confidence that comes with the real spiritual power, and experience those amazing gifts?
In my whole life I have only met one gay man who, as far as I could tell by speaking to him, was fully comfortable being himself. He was much more masculine than me, and he radiated a spiritual love. I found myself actually a little attracted to him. His name was Mike. I know I can't generalize because everyone and every situation is different. Maybe I'm actually truly bi because I have that cock fetish/attraction that MasterJack talks about (I think lots of guys have that actually), but I have never actually been attracted to a man's energy like I was with him. Such a crazy thing to experience.
But anyway, Glory I think you should stop trying to change yourself when it is messing with your love and causing you pain.
And I think this attraction and love humans feel for eachother is all sexual in nature. And I think it is ONE energy, coming from ONE place. I think that we change this energy as we filter it through our personalities.
I guess I have the opinion that hypnosis files like the ones on this site should be used to follow one's highest excitement, which includes allowing one to get more in tune with their deeper self... but not to go against what is in the deeper self, and in your case, Glory, what is already known to you in your deeper self.
Lastly I would just like to say that if we could all be as comfortable and confident in our skin as Mike, god damn the world would be an enlightened place. Oh yeah and to drive the point home, Glory, what I'm trying to get at is that because Mike respected himself so completely, he radiated such power that to disrespect him was clearly folly. He radiated love and respect.