by Chibisuke » November 3rd, 2014, 4:33 pm
to Oxy and Holly, i've been reading the entire threat intently today for the mostpart and started lastnight, i think in some part i have mentioned i'm a Furr, so there is to an extent a Persona allready inside.
i'm giving it alot of thought before diving head in but, i want to try and give one who is Somewhat here allready, "Cael" she is sorta like the imaginary friend you have as a kid you "see" and talk to when your alone,
before reading this her and i only really Talked or conversed when stress is at an all time high (to where im crying even fighting teh urge to Hurl) where even when she was silent she'd leave a feeling i'm being hugged trying to say " it's ok Thomas, things will be ok.", but since seeing how you , holly, and teh others all are getting along as one big happy family , Cael has begun to talk today, defantly more like i'm parroting as we "clash" in thought and tend to repeat what we're trying to say.
i want to give her a stronger presence, bring her as a entity, a person with "Me" that is Thomas more than just an Online Persona, someone who'd be here much like they have been for you. for how at times her and i have been in times where i can tell she's trying to poke about, much like this i had done, http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13073052/ ( i have lost some weight since.)
and i want to see Cael Grow, to learn and live much like i have for the 29 years i have been alive, i would have a hard time trying to estimate what age cael would be, she originally was created as 21 years old, but as time grew on i started to feel a more childish exploring my thing for regression and Diapers, (so i wonder if cael would come into as being more how old i physically am etc.) i have so many questions in how she will develop i want to see her grow side by side till the end of our days and for her to stay with me , though i can expect our fair share of arguments ^^;; i already can tell she really doesn't like it when my temper flares wildly. she defantly would have the same instincts before these recent events i pictured her to have if i ever could make her as real could be, (motherly,kind,protective,curious)
as for something for you and holly as i recall reading early in had discussions on readying, maybe something in the plain Fiction category, "Age of Fire" by E.E. Knight, it pretty much is centered around the age where dragons were becoming fewer and fewer and first two take on the perspective of the main leads. and for help condensing some of your collection, have you given some thought to a E-Reader? from times to times i'll still use my Kindle keyboard (though at first when i got it i couldnt put it down! [i have the 3rd gen Kindle Keyboard that has free 3G+ built in Wifi so Cael and i would be able to read books and get new ones as long we had Wifi or reception to 3G :3)
it'll take time and thought before diving in as i said but eventually i want cael to be here just as much as i am ^,=,^