by Alien4420 » August 26th, 2014, 9:48 pm
I think the fem bit was always in me, just locked away. I mean I was a sissy in that I wanted a female body and even took hormones but I wasn't fem acting or even into dressing (until I listened to those feminization files, anyway). I did listen to some Mind Mistress files that make you fem acting but it was always a one-off thing since I didn't want those effects and I'd just edit them out.
OK so maybe a week ago I was thinking about the fact that fem guys made me anxious the way gay guys used to, and usually when that happens it means I have that desire inside. And then the next day I woke up wanting to be fem acting and loving everything about it. And then Dave came back and I was thinking about his cute pink collar and wishing it was me.
So I think it was just in me even before Forced Gay and I was just scared by all the boyhood crap about behaving like a man, and bottled it up.