by joe » September 22nd, 2013, 3:09 pm
i've been at this for awhile and ive seen a few things on here as well as on cyoc.net and etc... so i thought id start a thread here and tell my story.
is anyone into this, has anyone tried it? i've been slowly changing my life (with help from a boss) for a good couple of months now and it's really starting to take hold -- right now we're melding my two lives, so it's subtle and slow, which is good... we've even created an alter ego with a name for when i have the really extreme urges. at one point my facebook cover photo was the confederate flag, but that was too much too fast and i found myself kinda pulling back from it...
i've been at transformation fetish for a LONG time now, and i've gone through a lot of changes - i've been everything from the street trash type "wigger," i've tried to become a bodybuilding-obsessed jock - basically any stereotype which is classically unintelligent and hyper-masculine. if it had an edge of lower-class, so much the better.
these days, i've given up all my gear that can't be considered redneck to my boss and/or sold it on eBay. initially, this was frightening, since i've "purged" before and always regretted it. however, this time i know this change is for real and forever. i've been wearing a Mossy Oak camouflage ballcap, love wearing practical, workmanlike clothes, and i've even changed my job from working at a desk in a cell center to stocking shelves at a grocery store. my plans for the future involve saving up to buy a truck, then saving up to get my CDL, and then becoming a trucker. i've found myself curious about mudding and guns, drink beer and whiskey almost exclusively, and picked up smoking - Marlboro Red 100s - and i love all of it. there are still some things i'd like to change, but it'll happen, i'm sure of it. i even find my politics shifting from a more liberal bent to a conservative outlook (on certain issues) when i care at all about government, etc.
i guess this is just to say that, as a longtime transformation/hypnosis junkie, i've finally found a way to achieve real change. before, it was all
about satisfying the rush, going for extremes, then jerking off and feeling immediately conflicted and sometimes even backpedaling or purging, then just feeling truly miserable. this way, slowly adding to my existing life (and subtracting some, too) i can get to where i want to be. i don't know if i will ever be considered a "true" redneck, but i'm waiting for the day that someone i know sees me and says "you're kind of a redneck, huh?" i know i have a lot of work to do, but i'm confident i'll get there.
that's all i can think of at the moment - is anyone else out there interested in this sort of thing? what have you tried/is it working?
thanks for your time, y'all.