My true self

[aungshadow]

I wish there was a file that allows you to become your real self, I've looked in the mirror and look at a lie everyday. I know who I am inside

and I'm going to admit it to everyone, because the truth I can't hide

My truth self's name is Alice, a lesbian girl trapped in the body, of a man. If anyone can make a file that can make my outside like my inside and set me free I will be forever grateful

[pennyf]

I wish

[transformerdreamer]

From my understanding Aung, or maybe I should call you Alice. You need to make a decision to stay the way you are now, or change forever. From my experience, and keep in mind I'm very very hard to hypnotize these files don't produce much results (for me anyway).

What I recommend is that you try to do this by using the only for sure thing. Supplements and surgery. Well you might be thinking that this may be too hard to costly or maybe you don't think you are brave enough to do it.

When I am confronted with a problem that seems like a mountain the size of Everest. I like to take the first few steps first and see at least hw bad it is.

What I am saying is perhaps you should try to collect information first:

1) Go to Youtube and search for something like "M2F transition photos", you will see people that have done it in a matter of a year or more.
2) Find Online communities/forums/websites and read and participate
3) You need from my understanding Estrogen and another pill that suppresses Hormones, Price these out. They are not that bad I think but you will need to take them all your life until science progresses and yes, they are working on it. (YOU NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR BEFORE YOU TAKE THESE)
4) The pills make you a women almost completely. Skin, hair, voice, breasts, appearance. HOWEVER some males need hair removal and you WILL need to go under the knife for a vagina.
5) You need to break this to your family and friends so this is where I recommend you seek an online community for help.
6) Being a women is a big change, bigger then some may think. You need to consider clothes, underwear, shoes, make up, eyebrows, fingernails. These may be some of the earlier steps you take.
7) Be prepared for some discrimination, if you already are in your career and say have a diploma that has your old name, it may look odd to a future employer, so you may want to consider this. Look into getting you name changed legally then updating your diploma. You may be able to do this with all of your legal documents, this will take a little money and patience.

I hope I covered everything and helped you at least start to make a decision. Remember this too, there's nothing wrong with you and it's your life. Let society talk, you can't satisfy everyone, and maybe your own satisfaction is or valuable then that of those that can't accept you but consider your loved ones and consider the doors it may close due to society being behind the times.

[Tangy]

[jooli]

[transformerdreamer]

Thanks for clearing that up, I appreciate the help as you can probably tell I am a man after all :lol:

This is perfect you can help way more than I can.

[aungshadow]

thanks, now my next issue drumming up the courage to admit it to everyone else

[1love]

I just came out. Introduced myself as Anima (Little phycology pun i stuck with) at a party. Wore makeup and some girls clothes. Nobody was really shocked. Lol. Only realy my ex. Who hasnt talked to me since.

My parents dint get it at all. but theyll come around.

I feel great since i came out. I feel like im the me im supposed to be. Obviously i can get closer to that with hormones which ill be looking into as soon as i have the time. I think im gonna stick wandering around in the androgynous forest for a while.
I definitely recommend youtube. You see some manly looking guys go straight to fem.... And they look good;)
Here is a youtube page made by several transgendered in the uk. Quite inspiring. They talk about coming out and transitioning. http://www.youtube.com/user/TransStampUk?feature=plcp

What im trying to say is, You dont need to see the whole staircase to take the first step. Try it out. You'll probably love it. And if haters gonna hate, cut them out. Sure it hurts. But you dint need them.

[transformerdreamer]

I'm glad that people are talking so free about this. It's a tough subject for most, I have a friend who is gay and he was very scared about coming out to anyone but he is my friend and I support him.

Perhaps the reason why I can relate to such a thing was because I was suicidal at one point, I lost a friend to suicide as well. I told no one and struggled by myself for many years.

One thing is for sure you can't fight your self forever.

[MasterHMH]

This is a beautiful thread.

[aungshadow]

indeed it is, but i'm also worried about telling the people around me, its not easy to come out, especial to your loved ones

[homerj1620]

[Tangy]

[aungshadow]