by pypr420 » April 30th, 2011, 7:49 pm
these last few posts have been interesting for me. im with frowny on this though. ive never been attracted to guys as a a man.. but as a woman.. and now after years and years of listening to just about every feminization file on this site, i find myself actively seeking men to feminize me physically, daddy types.. id have never thought. however looking back at various instances in my life, this really "is" something ive always wanted, it's just not something i've consciously allowed myself to accept, up until now.. men dont turn me on, but when i perceive myself as female this is a different story. i find myself taking photos of myself en femme and than just looking at them in an effort to boost my femme confidence.. and it works. now i find myself posting photos on various transgendered dating sites. trust me, even one year ago i would have never ever considered evvvveeerrr letting anyone see a pic of me en femme, but the desire was there, so was the fear.. you can see my tits in the gallery here on this site actually.. ^_^
its difficult for someone who was born male to consciously perceive themself as female. hypnosis can only change your perceptions, but you still have to do the work.. hypnosis for me has pushed me to do the work.. ive known for a long time that i am transgendered, but without support in "any" dream or effort, it can be extremely difficult to exercise them into reality. any person can change there mind about anything at any time if they want to, think about how often your opinions change. who here has ever bought a car from a dealer and got exactly what they went in for. tell me your mind wasn't changed in some small way.. ^_^i
and to echo frowny, did the files make me do this? or is this something ive always wanted.. who cares? and again looking back, it tends to be the latter, the self-acceptance was missing. thinking im starting to rant. going to stop here ^_^