by SubWuffer » April 17th, 2010, 4:39 pm
Thanks again to Calimore for posting those messages! It's really good to know. Another reason I asked (other than wondering if I was in fact, going mad) was to see if anything in it would interfere with my work. The answer is yes, but not in any disruptive way.
I work with food, surrounded now by good smells. I was wondering why I was now so constantly hungry :lol:
Sub_Canine is a good file, I've enjoyed it a lot. It seems very subtle in it's effects on me, aromathepy baths are now mandatory. And I often find myself thinking thoughts that would have seemed out of place before, constantly checking for new scents. I saw a pidgeon on a lampost the other day for example, and my first responce was: "I wonder if I could climb that before the stupid thing noticed". Mostly I try to forget what I know of the messages, I don't know, for a more "Natural" take I suppose, but now I have peace of mind, it's easier, and It's also comforting when I get odd thoughts like that, to cross check the list. It's always there =D
However, new report!
The other day, though it is obvious to me now, after looking over the forums here, that I seem unusually sugestible, the other day I seemed so more than ever. Maybe I was more relaxed? I don't know.
But a week maybe before this day, I'd listened to Florida Puppy's Playing Bitch. A fun file indeed. The trigger was self triggerable for me, definatly, but not particularly strong. Untill the other day. I was bored on my lunch, and decided to spend a little while under the affects of that trigger. It felt stronger than ever, really really powerful...
...What is truely astounding, is that I have listened to the file itself all of ONCE under trance.
Later that day, I came home, and Sub_Canine kicked in strong. Now, before listening to this file, sleeping on the floor held no interest for me. Recently I cleared a perfect space, if I felt like it. Still slept on the bed, but it was comferting to know I had a place on the floor if I felt like it.
That day however I just... really, really wanted to sleep on the floor. There were wires and papers in my place, so just got into bed. But lying there for a while... didn't feel right. I should be sleeping on the ground. So I did. And apart from my dressing gown, I was comfy.
SO I curled up and stuck on Blink's Good Boy. And although usually wonderful, that night, every single time he said "Good Boy" Elicited a gasp from me of both the wonderful "Hot soup after a snow fight" Pleasure inside and the more direct pleasure of erotic stimulation. Everything that day was just stronger.
Is it because I had just... given in to temptation, at lunch, and activated a trigger, in my work clothes, did that open a barrier, who knows?
Has anybody else had days like that?