by joshfircand » January 12th, 2007, 9:19 am
I just wanted to thank sissyboyoxford for his continuing updates to this thread. As an outsider looking on, it's been fascinating to hear about.
My personal take on your situation however, is that if your breakup with your girlfriend was a 'mutual' thing, then it's likely that there were deeper issues. Otherwise, wouldn't the rational reaction from the girlfriend have been 'Wow, I can't believe the file has had an effect on you. This explains so much of the past many weeks. We don't want that. Lets get things fixed to both our satisfaction. Either pay to have the file's effects removed, or as others have suggested, make the conscious decision to start listening to a file with the opposite effect'. ... And I do have to chime in with the comment that, even if you didn't believe it could possibly have an effect, perhaps you shouldn't have chosen a file whose changes would be repellant to you if they did work.
Since you have listened, and since the files have, as you claim, had such an effect on you.....my advice is this. You are, from your perspective, in a unique situation. You are single (and I'm assuming have no hope or desire to get back with the girlfriend, even were you returned to your usual orientation) and so there's not really any downside to experimenting, if you have an open mind. You can test the waters, and say to yourself, 'Can I be happy this way?'. And if in your thoughts, whether you act on them or not, you say 'no, I can't be happy this way.', then trust me when I say, 'curse' file or not, the effects are reverseable. If you say 'Yeah, I'm okay with this'.....then be happy, call that guy back, and welcome, brother, to being gay.
*bemused smile*