by Aisakicha » July 6th, 2023, 8:15 am
Oh wow, that feels too soon. So, shortly after my previous post, my best friend visited, we hugged as you do and like, it wasn't particularly different, but she stumbled and we ended up on the couch, I pretended to tackle her down which ended up with my head on her thigh, and that was nice. I wouldn't really say sexual or anything, but nice. That's all normal stuff though.
She brought the roommates out shopping, I couldn't go as I had things to do, but I finished things before they got back, so home to myself and I of course listen to this again. One thing that I've noticed on every listen I've "woken up" from the file horny. Like, I mentioned that I was ace in my first post, and like I've dealt with horny, it's just like... Not targeted at anyone usually? Just like... Rubbing certain places feels nice. Well, they all get home before I finish the file, but like it was just before the awakener I think but like wow I was horny, and definitely needed a moment before I could get dressed and join everyone out of my room. She had to leave because work but I asked her how she liked our new AC, and she said that she liked it, "but I'll miss seeing you in those cute little dresses you wear when you're too hot." Which definitely felt fun, but again, like, I know she's attracted to me, and I normally like such comments from her. I have a fair portion of lesbian friends I feel I should mention.
Later that night, I hopped onto Tumblr, and ended up seeing a drawing of princess Zelda (from the game series if there are others that I can't remember at the moment!) in a white dress that was very... Overly form-fitting on her large ass, and that I actually got... quite horny from and I kind of just... Stared for a while. I don't know if it was because of other events from the day that I got such a strong reaction or what, especially as I wasn't really particularly distracted the next day at work by customers or anything, although also definitely too busy for that. Even now, I've woken up in the middle of the night for me, so I just decided to play some mobile games since I couldn't get back to sleep, and like, there are those sorts of ads, you know? Like, definitely running off of "Hey, we have hot girls in this game!" and I'm... starting to pay more attention to those? I downloaded a game that didn't have an ad like that, but the store page had a fitness app with a thumbnail that had a female form that particularly emphasized her butt and it definitely got me to click on it...
I am still not a lesbian, but I guess I'm more interested in looking for more than just fashion at the moment? I'm probably just like... Primed to lean into it particularly at the moment since getting anything to work at all before required a lot of conscious leaning into whatever file I was trying to get to work, and they wear off quickly. But they usually take more listens than this to kick in at all.