Hello and welcome to warpmymind! I loved reading your story, and wish the best with your transition.
You might be interested in listening to the Cursed Force Shemale file. Even though it seems like you are becoming a transsexual, there are other suggestions in the file which may appeal to you. These are increased libido and become a slut, orgasms from anal sex, and hands free ejaculation from being fucked (which will give you a massive orgasm, and the top's loves to watch).
It will also give your confidence with your new life and transition. Though from what you've written, it already seems you are already very confident.
Whatever you choose, I welcome you to a great community
Here's the original description for the file.
This file will force you to become:
1. A Pre-op shemale, and give you the confidence to not care what people think.
2. Attraction to men, and love cock in your ass.
3. Be a shemale slut with high libido.
4. Enjoy Multiple Orgasms from Anal Sex.
5. Ejaculate hands free when being fucked in the ass.
6. Write an online journal of your transformation progress on warpmymind.com. (This doesn't force you to upload pictures.)
7. You can't stop listening to the file until you become a pre-op shemale.
You can download here:[url]http://bit.ly/updatedshemale[/url]