by customized » September 27th, 2018, 11:57 pm
Here's hoping your challenge works out, guys! I am interested in seeing how it goes. Sadly, I won't be participating because I stopped listening to this file. Just wanted to share my story.
Let me start by saying I am absolutely confused about my fetishes. I love the 2 extremes: premature ejaculation and being horny all the time, leaking in my pants and ccp. But I am also weirdly attracted by shrinking cocks and chastity. So I normally do a few months of one, and when the files don't work quite as well as I wanted or I just find a more interesting file on the other side of the fence, I switch. I know it's stupid, but what can I do when I like both equally?? If only I had someone I trust to force me into one or the other lol
A couple months ago, I was listening to some premature ejaculation files with the goal of coming in my pants. While I was getting horny very easily and came very quickly, I didn't quite got it to the point of cumming in my pants. I was almost there, I leaked a lot of cum when I was excited but only if listening to the body of a file in public. If I wasn't listening to something, I couldn't do it. I guess I conditioned myself that way. Anyways, I digress.
So, since I hit a wall, I decided to try a few shrinking files for the first time. Some worked quite well, but not 100%. And then I tried Sarnoga's file. I listened to it for about a week or two, not quite daily since I work a lot and can't always find the time, much less twice a day for a 45 min file!
The nipples part didn't really work. They were getting a bit more sensitive but not that much. And certainly not enough to get me really aroused and even less to cum from it. But the rest worked quite well. My penis was shriveled most of the time and as small as when I am very cold, only I wasn't cold. I could get hard if I touched myself for a bit and wanted it. It wasn't that difficult. But only if I touched and wanted it. If I didn't touch, I couldn't get hard, whereas a couple days before I was getting hard at everything! And if I wanted to stay soft while touching, it was easier to do. When touching myself, I could get hard a bit against my will but then stopped and tried again when soft. And yes I could come when soft and it was great!
So yeah, I was on my way to have a teeny weeny. But then I got a crush on someone and while nothing happened, it made me think that if I HAD the chance, and I had a completely teeny weeny, I couldn't do anything with her if she wanted to and is that really what I want? Being single for the rest of my life because no women would want to even go out with me when they'd learn what I did to my penis? At least premature ejaculation is more common and some women don't mind that much. But I think seeing someone with a teeny weeny would just gross any woman out.
So I stopped. I even stopped all hypnosis for a month or so. And yes, some of Sarnoga's effects stayed with me. I am not shriveled anymore, but somewhat smaller than I was when soft. And I still can't get hard without touching. I feel something when I get excited, but it's more akin to shrinking. I don't get hard, and don't really shrink either, but I do feel like it wants to shrink. Maybe it does a bit, but mostly stay soft and the same size. I just feel it contracting, like if it was getting squeezed hard. But unless I touch myself, I can't get hard. I haven't measured it, but I think I may be a bit smaller too when it does get hard. But if so, not by that much.. Maybe half a inch.
Last week, I started hypnosis again, trying new premature files and such. During the files, I do get hard without touching most of the time. Not always but 90% of the time. But without listening to them, I still can't get hard by myself if not touching. Maybe if I watched really exciting porn, I could get it up without touching, but I am not a big porn watcher so I didn't try that yet.
That was my experience. I do not regret anything, although I would like to get how I was before, getting hard and leaking at nothing. Not sure if it will ever happen again. So, I guess that by listening to this file, I ruined both my fetishes! Hahaha! To be honest, I think I'd stick with the teeny weeny but while I am single and not very active sexually right now, I don't see myself living single without sex and affection for the rest of my life. That's the only reason I stopped. Well, that and the time sink, sadly.