by mondaytuesday » June 4th, 2016, 10:55 am
Hello, y'all. Wanted to leave an update on where I am presently on the journey I was sent on by listening to this file, becoming affected by it physically, which then resulted in an ongoing consequential increase of vulnerability, reduction, openness, and submissiveness within me.
I haven't listened to the Curse file in months, I don't think, and, yet, the effects continue. As many of you know from the photos I have posted over time, I did not stop shrinking after I had gone from having a man's cock and balls to getting my own teeny weeny. My physical being and my concept of self continued to constrict, tingle, contract, tighten, regress, and shrink. A result that I would have never imagined possible before coming to this site. When I experience feelings of fear and horror over my transformation and defeat, they are quickly washed away with increasing joy and pleasure and pride over my evolving body. I went from my penis to a teeny weeny, then down to having baby bits and balls. Then, my regression and shrinking of my manhood continued, as it drew what remained of my balls, up inside my abdomen, from which they have never descended again. My empty, tight, soft, little ballsack has been settling more and more into a tender pad that hosts my de-evolving infantile bits into what seems to be a boi-clitty.
I can't recall the last erection or orgasm I had, yet I still feel very sensual, even more so than ever. I would show you the tender fleshy protusion that had once been my sexually mature and developed dick, but the photo gallery doesn't seem to be working for uploads. I will, as soon as it is up and running again.
It's frightening, but then so very pleasurable, to experience something new, nowadays. The less I have to shrink and constrict into a tight, tingly spot down there, the more it seems I'm being targeted in other ways that regress and reduce me out of the reach of being a "real" adult male. So many times in the day, I become frustrated with an burning desire to seek out and serve my peer adult humans and to do it in a way that degrades and devalues me away from having a shared status and identity with them.
I gotta end here, for now. Writing this to you all is really causing me to tingle greatly down there. I can't get to my boi-clitty because my diapers are on so tight and thick. I bought and tried to put on a chastity cage and it was ridiculous. I couldn't get any meat up inside of it. Oh, goodness. I don't even know if me is wet anymore down there. Maybe, I don't know. I need to serve a dom Mommy or Daddy Master and let them enjoy the pleasure of a man and making me their captive plaything.
I can't believe how much I've changed. It's so frightening to realize that someone could so easily pluck me up and make me their male pet, their degraded babified former-man, their permanent provider of oral sex and worship of their worthy body.
I just hope my mind doesn't go, at the direction of a dominant who may have fun with me for a bit or so. There's so much baby behavior curses implanted in my subconscious, that transforming me back and forth, to their whim, has been made accessible.
Help me or join me in my joy. I don't know which. I forgot to remember.