by donfelice » December 12th, 2014, 7:46 am
So, after a week of listening to the non-curse version, here's my... observations.
A last measurement (today) gave me 16 cm or just below 6.3 inches. I have taken a measurement of 7 inches on monday and have a photo of it. Sadly I didn't take a photo before listening, so it's kind of hard for myself to believe that I had ~8". It feels like nothing changed and as if it always was the 6.3" it is now.
So even if I factor in some variance (holding the ruler differently/changing degrees of hardness), I kind of have to admit, the file might have had an impact.
However, the biggest changes seemed to have happened in the first few days, as it only went down from 6.5 or something on wednesday to 6.3 now. Maybe my mind subconsciously tried to resist further changes after the first realisation that it had gotten smaller.
What else do I notice that has changed?
- constant horniness (have to jerk of around twice a day, but could even more often)
- my ballsack feels tighter and the balls ride higher (they used to almost always hang pretty low)
- when my dick is soft, it feels smaller/tighter, a little rubbery (soft lenght went down from 4.7" to usually 3.9" now)
- my balls kind of tickle and almost constantly slightly ache, like I have blue balls
- my dick tingled a lot during the first half of the week, not so much during the last few days. Since most of the effect seemed to have happened during the first days, it seems that this sensation is connected to the shrinking
Another observation that further confirms my finding of actually having lost a little length: during sex, I can stick my whole dick inside and fuck my GF quite hard. I wasn't able to do that before and had to always leave about 2" outside. That isn't really tangible proof, but well - it just adds to the overall feeling of being a little shorter.
SO.. after this week, I have accepted, that I don't belong into the 1-percentile anymore, but instead have an average sized dick. Maybe I cheated, when I measured my dick in the past - I can't tell anymore. I don't think so however, since I measured it with a now ex-gf once and we got well over 8" as a result back then.
A ridiculously hot russian student (who was married) that I had a fling with in college even told me I should be in porn, back then. IT CAN'T HAVE BEEN IMAGINATION THAT I USED TO BE BIG!!!
When I look her up on facebook, today (and she hasn't changed at all - didn't gain the slightest bit of weight) I can't believe that I have been her "bull". With 6.3" I would feel inadequate. Mediocre. A pretty "bittersweet" feeling.
If nothing else happened, this week changed my selfperception completely. I see myself as having an average cock now. And knowing that women, if given the opportunity, prefer 7-8" cocks... this is just a completely new feeling for me!
Well, that was a lot of text. The biggest question I have now is, why did the shrinking not continue that much during the last days?
I will lay off the file during this weekend and think I will listen to the curse-version of it from monday till christmas and see what will happen then.
Furthermore, I think I will stop taking measurements daily in order to stop my analytical/afraid/skeptical mind from taking countermeasures subconsciously.
What do you think? Is my perception of the "symptoms" (tingling, ball-aching, etc.) in line with what you guys experienced?
Thanks for reading :-)