Starting Feminization while Genderfluid/Trans Man

[hollowtown]

Hey there everyone. I'm 29. Genderfluid, but I basically present as a trans man in most of my life. That's just how it's worked out in terms of what I want my body to be like, and I have a hormonal condition that is treated by taking testosterone. I found that even as a child my presentation would shift from feminine to masculine. Like a pendulum. And I've been on a loooooong masculine swing, and now I'm moving towards something more androgynous. Ever since I got top surgery (no nipples) I've been more interested in playing around with some femininity, but it's been a long time and I'm not sure how to approach it now.

I've been experimenting with hypnosis for a bit over a year now but have had the interest for a very long time. Going back to middle school I would have intense vivid fantasies usually involving being restrained in some way, having my consciousness altered, mind control chips, experiments. At some point that stopped and I didn't think of it until a few years ago. Everything revolving around loss of control, altered states of mind, bondage.

Most of my hypno experience was all over the place, a good bit of droneplay, petplay, and I found the dominant hypno culture not great for me as I'm prone to compulsive behaviors, and as fun as it is I do not need hypno interfering with my life.

I've been recultivating my fantasizing practice, employing an inner hypnodomme voice and it's been very fruitful. A dom I've worked with previously gave me a trigger I could use on myself and I've built a lot of my self hypno practice off of that. I've been listening to some feminization files and have enjoyed them a lot and I'm cultivating a feminine persona and I have some clothes I've saved from pre top surgery and costumes. I dabble in some drag, all kinds of presentations.

I would love to hear from people some suggestions, and to connect with any other trans people here. Sorry if anything is confusing, I'm writing this feeling the tug of trance, so I'll leave off here :3