by jarvisteflon » October 27th, 2006, 6:02 pm
I admit I am ignorant of how (or if) hypnosis works. Or if it does, if it works on everybody under all circumstances.
I have listened to various files here, some of them more than once, usually sitting up right at the computer and awake. I have never tranced out, to my knowledge. Often I skip the induction completely, so I can "get to the good part". So as I listen to just those parts repeatedly, I guess that's more of a meditation than it is hypnosis.
This week I downloaded some files to my iPod and have been listening to them during my 60 minute cardio work out. Not the most relaxing state to be in, but there IS a lot of deep breathing, and a kind of exhalted state of mind, and the headphones help.
I know that other factors have affected my feminization, factors other than the files I've sampled here. So I doubt the files are responsible (solely) for what has happened. But have they enhanced the effects? Have they "warped my mind" and changed my priorities? Worn down my resistance, such as it is/was? Made me take steps and do things I might not otherwise have dared do? Maybe.
Read some of my comments in the What is your Fantasy thread. I came to all this already with a self-destructive tendency and a curiosity (even a desire) to be feminized. Or to at least flirt with feminization. If it amounts to "playing with fire" that in itself is exciting. I have had the tendency my entire life.