Under the heading of "Be careful what you wish for"

First some preliminary information so you know where i am coming from...
My infatuation with feminization is completely an instance of autogynophillia. That is erotic feeling from visualizing that you are essentially your own sex partner and of opposite gender. I do not consider myself gay. Nor bisexual. I have never had so much as a thought in those directions.
I have been collecting and using files on hypnotic feminization from several sites.
One of the files is an extremely high quality multitracked hypnotic program to get you to enter a chatroom and pretend to be a horny girl and engage in cybersex with a man who does not know you are a guy. I have not done the "assignment." But i have listened to it for about two weeks.
Well the file has whisper tracks that reinforce the programming. Suggestions that you will feel what your partner describes doing to you as if it is actually happening and that it will be very arousing, etc...There are parts that are impossible to hear exactly what she is saying due to low volume and near simultaneous timing.
OK so far... However:
Last week i had to take a bird to the veterinarian for an emergency. When the Vet who was male got within about three feet of me i suddenly had an electrical explosion sensation in my groin. i started to go erect. i got kind of lightheaded and disoriented. i got extremely horny. I had to struggle to regain control and prevent myself from becoming fully erect and go on with my rescue mission.
It would have placed me in an extremely hazardous and embarrassing situation if i could not resist the programmed urges there. I live in a small southern town where that sort of thing could actually endanger my life or at least force me to move out of town. And no i still have no intention of being other than hetero but may have to deal with unwanted bisexual urges. Not only that but only part of me can fight it. There is a portion of me that wants it.
Apparently there is a situational trigger ( I'm guessing) hidden in the whisper tracks. And apparently it works very well. The sneaky little minx put it in a free file from her site. It is of course my own fault for being a file hoarder and listening to that file. But i will say this she is very very good and very very sneaky. I can just see her saying "if those cheap cocksuckers don't want to pay for my other files then they really will be cocksuckers!" and cackling like a mad woman... :wink:
That darned trigger thing really works. I guess that is a success? anyway success does have it's little drawbacks, sometimes.
My infatuation with feminization is completely an instance of autogynophillia. That is erotic feeling from visualizing that you are essentially your own sex partner and of opposite gender. I do not consider myself gay. Nor bisexual. I have never had so much as a thought in those directions.
I have been collecting and using files on hypnotic feminization from several sites.
One of the files is an extremely high quality multitracked hypnotic program to get you to enter a chatroom and pretend to be a horny girl and engage in cybersex with a man who does not know you are a guy. I have not done the "assignment." But i have listened to it for about two weeks.
Well the file has whisper tracks that reinforce the programming. Suggestions that you will feel what your partner describes doing to you as if it is actually happening and that it will be very arousing, etc...There are parts that are impossible to hear exactly what she is saying due to low volume and near simultaneous timing.
OK so far... However:
Last week i had to take a bird to the veterinarian for an emergency. When the Vet who was male got within about three feet of me i suddenly had an electrical explosion sensation in my groin. i started to go erect. i got kind of lightheaded and disoriented. i got extremely horny. I had to struggle to regain control and prevent myself from becoming fully erect and go on with my rescue mission.
It would have placed me in an extremely hazardous and embarrassing situation if i could not resist the programmed urges there. I live in a small southern town where that sort of thing could actually endanger my life or at least force me to move out of town. And no i still have no intention of being other than hetero but may have to deal with unwanted bisexual urges. Not only that but only part of me can fight it. There is a portion of me that wants it.
Apparently there is a situational trigger ( I'm guessing) hidden in the whisper tracks. And apparently it works very well. The sneaky little minx put it in a free file from her site. It is of course my own fault for being a file hoarder and listening to that file. But i will say this she is very very good and very very sneaky. I can just see her saying "if those cheap cocksuckers don't want to pay for my other files then they really will be cocksuckers!" and cackling like a mad woman... :wink:
That darned trigger thing really works. I guess that is a success? anyway success does have it's little drawbacks, sometimes.