terrible success ... incredible shrinking weenie

[OxyFemboi]

[Alien4420]

My testosterone is waning. I think it takes a while, at least it has in my case -- your balls don't shrivel all at once.

[OxyFemboi]

[Alien4420]

That's pretty cool, actually. I wouldn't really care what size they are if they were inside. Mine have been moving up gradually, but so far, only the left one has gone inside on its own, and that was only twice that I know of, when I was having regular ejaculations.

Also, I haven't noticed any more shrinkage -- I'm still at 2-3/4" when I stand up. (Which is 1/2" of shrinkage from where I was before I started listening to TW again but the same as before I stopped.) What I've noticed is I'm limper and floppier, like the rag doll Sarnoga mentions in the file. So while the minimum size is no different, the *usual* size is less and every time I reach down there to pee or play I'm surprised because it isn't where my hand expects it to be.

[OxyFemboi]

[Alien4420]

I read somewhere that those Jim Ward pamphlets were full of made-up stories. :-) It's an intriguing idea, though. I don't know enough about anatomy to know where/if you can do a deep piercing like that without causing problems. Wonder where to ask -- BME?

I'm intrigued now by a thread I read yesterday about castration and transsexualism, guys who had been castrated were saying it produced changes regarding forex transsexualism even with testosterone and more readical changes if they took estrogen instead. I'm wondering if my lower testosterone from listening to TW (mostly manifesting as reduced sexual desire) has something to do with the fact that most of the resistance I still had to CFG has evaporated. Also the effects of taking hormones as a kid on what I want (of course I already wanted breasts or I wouldn't have taken them) and the effects of your hormone changes on what you want:

http://forums.eunuch.org/showthread.php?24699-Can-castration-cause-one-to-become-transgendered

Also still feeling driven by Sarnoga's eunuch slave curse though after listening only once (I think) I don't feel like I have to do it. But I keep thinking about it. My subconscious doesn't seem to be as happy with just having my balls disappear as having them cut off by order of a master, even though it was TW that reawakened eunuch slave curse in the first place and made me want a master to force me to listen.

(Of course, the perspective being that I always wanted a woman's body sexually -- so I think these files all tap into/reawaken/modify that desire rather than creating it from scratch.)

[OxyFemboi]

[jearns]

[foxbarking]

[Alien4420]

I thought that might be the case.

Well, I've said it before and I've said it again, you're lucky to have a friend like Chris. I tried mention Teeny Weenie to the real life friend and bondage buddy who most shares my sexual quirks but he started to freak out, so I had to drop it.

One thing, though -- if he won't let you contribute, Chris should have to tell us about *his* progress.

Being humiliated like this is really hot and I envy you for that, too, though I know what you mean -- I find that kind of humiliation very real, at the same time as it turns me on. I think fear of humiliation has been my main sexual bugaboo over the years. Every time I think of something cool I imagine myself in the hospital being looked at and discussed by the staff.

I've always envied people who were braver than I was about this stuff. I'd have an earring, but they'd have a ring through their nose. And I'd want a ring through my nose too and would pierce it, but then I wouldn't have the guts to wear it in public. I guess I've gone pretty far with hormones, Curse Forced Gay, and Teeny Weenie, but there are definitely more things I would do if it weren't for my fear of humiliation.

[foxbarking]

I tend to over mention my willingness in this whole thing, I know. I guess I sometimes assume that some people might think that Chris is a mean jerk or that these sort of things wouldn't be happening because they sometimes play out like erotic stories. Chris is actually a sweetheart and if I ever truly got angry at him, he'd likely drop the entire thing and never bring it up again. The six clothed friends might seem odd also, but they are all guys who are abdls and a couple leather guys, so the situation isn't as unusual as it might seem.

Chris tends not to post on message boards at all. He's one of those people who you bug to do something over and over again, but he never finds a way to get around to it. For example, the dishes are direct on Tuesday and he mentions he will wash them and then does so on Sunday (I'm obsessive compulsive so I find this sort of thing ghastly).

The other night was fun. I was sitting on the floor in my diaper translating a manga when the guys came over. They gave me lots to drink and I was wearing an abena x plus, so it took a long time to get to the point where I needed to change. I had to let them watch as it got wet. So finally when I got a change, Chris laid me on the bed and all six guys were watching as he took the diaper off and everyone saw what was left of my dick. Most of them were surprised as they had all seen the former 8 and a half I used to have. I received a lot of tormenting comments. A friend of mine who has a penectomy fetish made a comment about how I had basically had one the safest way possible. They were allowed to pull open the front of my clean diaper and look in whenever they wanted.

All in all, it was great. However, the miniscule bit of penis I have left did not stir at all although I was so turned on by the end that I was grabbing at it and trying to get some sort of reaction. I was longing and missing how it felt to grab it and stroke it, but no matter how hard I tried, I got nothing.

[Alien4420]

Wow. When you got to the point where everyone looked at what was left of your cock it was so hot. I've posted pictures in the gallery which was pretty humiliating but I can't wait for my friends to see what's left in real life. 2-1/2" is now about as "hard" as I get, that's standing up. it's almost always floppy now and disappears when I play with it and I find myself doing the weenie orgasms less and less.

I was always turned on by the idea of penectomy like your friend but never had the guts to go through with it. But I had to listen to Sarnoga's eunuch slave as a punishment and now I can't get the idea of castration out of my mind. So I guess it's kind of a race - if Teeny Weenie makes my balls move inside, there will be nothing to remove. They shrank a lot and now they live up by the base, they never come down anymore even when it's hot, but so far, only the let one has gone inside on its own, and that's only happened twice, back when I was still having the occasional hard ejaculation.

If anyone had told me that I'd go more than two days without coming, I'd have told them I was nuts, but I just realized that I've scarcely come in half a year!

Wow.

[OxyFemboi]

[Alien4420]

I think regular castration costs $2500, that's easy to get. There are also cutters who will do it for free but of course you're taking a risk.

Penectomies are harder to come by. Some guys do get them. It's been years since I read up on it, but I know some guys have convinced urologists to do it and I think you can get them done in Thailand.

It's easy of course to get your hair removed by electrolysis, but I think incredibly time consuming if you want to do your whole body. Maybe it's faster now with lasers, last time I checked it was new and there was some debate about whether it was permanent but that was many years ago.

I'm thinking that mounding might be the most practical way to go, the question being has anyone actually *done* this? I mean I see a lot of photoshopped stuff and two sets of instructions, but has anyone done it for real with a surgical stapler? As someone pointed out, you'd have to have the hair removed on your package, like before SRS. But once it's done, apparently you can't come, so you'd be at the mercy of anal orgasms.

I'm still planning to try it with tape.

[jan]

I have had the castration fantasy at various times, but the resulting sexlessness has always turned me off - i.e. its a turnon, but afterwards it would not be.

The laser lights work best for dark-haired people, from what I can find out. For permanent hair-removal, a cheap-labor country such as Thailand might make sense too. Thailand is definitely the country for sex surgery, as lady-boys are so prevalent there, and their surgeons have more experience than anyone else.

[alphabeta11]

Just make sure you don't use super glue with balls and dick. They don't go well together.

[OxyFemboi]

[Alien4420]

[jan]

I don't think it is obvious or redundant to say that Thailand has a lot of ladyboys. One would expect that all things being equal there would be an equivalent number of transexuals in every country, but Thailand seems to have a lot more than any other country. They are certainly more visible and more integrated into society than in other countries. They can be seen as hairdressers, hotel reception clerks, hotel maids, and so on, in addition to having their own gurly bars.

I tried to google for numbers proving that Thailand had more TSs than other countries, but numbers are hard to come by, it appears: see http://ai.eecs.umich.edu/people/conway/TS/TSprevalence.html and http://www.transgenderasia.org/paper_counting_kathoey.htm, for example.

[Alien4420]

[Alien4420]

[jan]

I think that if I could turn completely into a normal girl, with a normal female body and organs, I'd do it. The messy reality, though, is that the compromises and difficulties attached to it make the barriers too high.

At least the Thais, though not bias-free, seem to mostly leave it up to your karma in this life, and let a ladyboy be.

The circlist site told me far more than I imagined possible:)

[Alien4420]

Yeah, I know what you're saying about the difficulties. I actually came close to transitioning, saw a psychologist, told family and friends I was TS (which isn't really true, but it's harder to explain that you would feel comfortable sexually having a female body). But in the end decided I'd be sacrificing too much.

I'm still learning about circumcision, trying to figure out things like whether I have a frenulum or not (or part of one). I'm realizing that I went half a century playing with my shaft without really knowing how it was glued together. :-)

[OxyFemboi]

[Alien4420]

[OxyFemboi]

[mikethedonnie]

Anyone else find this weird? I have not listened to the file for awhile now due to I am scared what will happen to me. Yet my cock only gets semi-hard if at all unless I force myself to get it up and my mind wanders when I am alone to getting rid of it. I need some advice

[Alien4420]

[OxyFemboi]

[CyrilMtl]

Interesting way to discover how far you are fuck with the teeny weeny syndrome !
Another file I don't want to experiment, I like my PENIS the way it is :)

[OxyFemboi]

[jan]

I saw yet another description of mounding, here:

http://www.newfapchan.org/di/res/8048.html

[Alien4420]

Thanks, that's really interesting. I tried it a few days ago with tape & it worked pretty well, but my head was sticking out too far. Not quite sure what they're doing in those photos -- pushing it up inside after the mound has been made?

[legolash]

[OxyFemboi]

[Yamigalence]

First of all, I have been a long time watcher of this thread and love all the success I have seen. I do have some questions about how things function now that everyone (that has used the file). The most burning question is how a teenie weenie orgasm feels like. The other question is a bit too personal to ask in thread, so PM if you are curious.

[Alien4420]

Weenie orgasms are very intense and you can have multiple orgasms. You feel pumping too, but because you're soft, little comes out. Also, you just feel satisfied for a moment, as if you'd come, and then instead of losing interest in sex and feeling sleep you're suddenly hornier than ever. Plus you start getting body rushes because your prostate is swollen and this goes on for hours during which you're insanely horny and have trouble getting anything non-sex-related done.

I found that everything became less intense with time, perhaps because my balls shrank and I was making less testosterone. But I was still sex-crazed all the time. Now that I've gone back to having regular orgasms (because I stopped shrinking) I miss that constant horniness but on the other hand I can get stuff done again!

Still amazing to look down at my package and see how its been miniaturized. Like a little toy version of what I used to have.

[diode168]

[Yamigalence]

[Alien4420]

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[OxyFemboi]

[ShrunkenMaster]

[Small1sh]

Just wondering how everyone else is getting on that we've not heard from for a while, like Cloudrider07, Jearns and pashrinker?

I'd be interested to see what theirs are like now [with a ruler].

[Alien4420]

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[Alien4420]

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[Sylvan012]

Hey, uh, I met this really masterful guy who kinda knew I was submissive and such. He encouraged me to listen to this file and, well, I did ... most of it, at any rate. About 75%.

But I can't stop thinking about it even though he told me that it's had really monstrously reported results on guys.

The thing is, I didn't start out very big at all.

I'm concerned that even though I love humiliation, that I may end up really smaller...

Insight? Ideas? Feedback?

[OxyFemboi]

[Sylvan012]

[OxyFemboi]

[Scarlett_S]

I'm really interested in having a tiny little clitty, but I don't want to get rid of it permanently. Are there any short-term alternatives? EMG's 7 Day shrink is lacking in reviews, but it'd be about perfect for what I'm wanting.