by privateidaho03 » December 27th, 2012, 8:21 am
Thought I would post an update for those interested. Thanks to everyone who has posted their experiences.
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First I wanted to respond to cloudrider07. "Although this thread is very interesting, there is no way a file that you listen to can shrink your penis. Those who have taken pics must not have been as hard on later takes to show the results you have. Did you guys want to shrink it originally? Did you want it to work too badly or something? Im a skeptic."
When I first tried the file this is what I thought too. I wasn't afraid to try it because I figured it was impossible it could really work. The first of the photos I posted ... I can see how you would think it just looks like I wasn't totally hard. Because that's exactly how it worked, at first. I just couldn't get totally hard, no matter how turned on I got, how long I edged. I could still cum, could still feel the pleasure of release ... but no boner. The file trains your weenie to get *smaller* when you're turned on, rather than larger.
Over the course of a few months without erections, though, it seemed like the tissues of my cock were starting to atrophy. The file tells your body to cut off blood supply to the penis, especially when aroused. The tissues are getting less and less blood ... and I guess they just die away. The more it atrophies, the tinier it looks, the more aroused you get ... it's a really insidious self-reinforcing cycle.
As you can see from my most recent pics, I am able to achieve something of an erection ... a "pathetic stiffie" you might say. This is only possible with the help of a penis pump. As you can see, even with a max erection I don't exceed 4" :/
But the craziest effect has been on my nuts. They continued to shrink even as my penis size stabilized. They shrunk down to about 80-90% of my original testes size, about the size of little cocktail grapes. And then one day about a month ago they disappeared! Retracted back into my body, and I haven't seen them since :(
Consequently my cumloads are down to about 5-10% of their original volume :/ I would say this part sucks the most as it feels totally lame and emasculating to drop pathetic little loads. Lately it's been just a drop or two balling up at the end of my cock and it's over !! My orgasm lasts no more than 2 or 3 seconds and feels about as exciting as a sneeze.
As for the question of did I want to shrink it originally... FUCK no!! Actually the idea of having a tiny cock mostly disgusted me. And yet I've enjoyed reading quite a few cuckold stories over the years and and getting really turned on identifying with the poor little cuck ... getting pwned by a big bull stud. But it was always clearly a *fantasy* and not a real world desire.
The insidious thing about this file is that it doesn't just work on shrinking your cock. It also works on your *desire* to have a tiny cock. After the first time listening, to my surprise I craved a tiny cock, for real, not just fantasy. It freaked me the fuck out! And then every time I find myself pulled back, inexplicably, to this file, every time I listen again I want it, more and more ... I want it to be smaller and smaller ...
I didn't really realize, as I was getting more and more addicted to the file and Sarnoga's voice ... I didn't realize what life with a teenie weenie would actually be like. Some days I still freak out and it feels like I'm trapped in some kind of horror novel. It really horrifies me sometimes to think what I've given up :/ The way the tissues in my penis and balls are dying away ... I'm starting to doubt that there is any way to reverse this process.
I haven't had the courage yet to show my cock to a woman in real life. This process has been a major shakeup in my identity. What's the first woman going to say? Will she laugh? Pity me? Even if I could get stiff enough to penetrate her, I'd be limited to missionary position ... and I'd only have an inch or two of thrusting space. I just see myself slipping out over and over and feeling really fucking humiliated :/ For the moment I don't have to worry about that as my stiffie's not nearly firm enough to make penetration possible. Basically my weenie is useless...
And yet I feel determined to find a woman. I crave pussy now even more than before! But it feels different now. I feel most attracted to having a woman so that I can offer her to other males, to superior males. The one thought that really gets me off is the image of a well endowed male ruthlessly plowing my wife or girlfriend in front of me ... as I diddle my little weenie and wonder what it's like to be *that* guy.
One result I did not expect is that in my daily life I have found a new level of respect for males generally. I'm starting to realize that basically every guy I see is more of a man than me. And it's really affecting the way I see the world. I feel a totally new respect and admiration for other guys ... and when I know a guy is well endowed, it's awe, amazement.
This online survey (http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20061110185444AAExPom) says 4" is the average size for a 12-year-old boy. One of the things that burns me the most, what really gets a burning hot embarrassment washing over my body, is when I see a 13-year-old punk kid ... and I realize he's probably bigger than me, he's probably got at least an inch on me :/ And I realize that in the eyes of women I've truly been reduced from man status back to boy status.
I am trying to accept what's happening and accept my new identity. There's no way I could be dominant with a woman in bed like I used to be ... and if I tried, I doubt I could even keep a straight face! Some days are harder than others. Ask me again tomorrow, but for today, I'm loving my new world! I am almost constantly horny, energized, I have amazing nipple orgasms every day, and my fantasies are becoming hot beyond belief. I'm discovering the extraordinary power of pain mixed with pleasure, terror mixed with desire. It's adding a whole new level of intensity to my life. I've lost a lot ... but I've received a lot too.
CAVEAT EMPTOR! Before you listen to this file, search your soul, be sure that this is truly what you want. I didn't understand the power that would be unleashed. Now my body and my sex life are totally transformed, in ways I haven't fully understood yet...