by nonbeliever » December 30th, 2007, 12:08 pm
hey... just to reply to a few of your posts before i start going off about the current ongoings...
-firstly, i have since offered to come up with ideas and stuff, but she pretty much said that she's got plenty to do before we have to resort to that... so, ill read up and stuff, and if she backs down a bit, ill offer help then.
-secondly, iv decided not to talk to her about my uneasiness but instead carry on going until it really bothers me- there's no point risking losing it all i dont think
-thirdly, im pretty sure she isn't turning me into a sex slave lol, im really not into that whole scenes and i dont think she is either
anyway, experiences over the past day- they're not too vast but ill say carry on anyway:
lots of sexual stuff as usual- she said my orals getting really good now :-) and thats amazing 'cos when she's horny, i get well horny too. these days i can only get horny around her for some reason- i guess its cos we're having so much sex im worn out... but like, i tried looking at some porn and im just too exhausted to wank off...
but anyway, that wasnt the mistake- for some reason i decided to tell her about it and she was well offended about me trying to wank and said she'd stop putting me under or id have to do a punishment to apologise... so i decided id do her punishment...
so she put me under as usual, but this time she made sure i remembered everything i did while i was put under vaguely... what i remember was feeling the need to please her so intensely and she asked me to put on a solo sex show for her- so i started stripping and jacking off for her then she gives me this dildo which i assumes for her, but shes like 'no, its for you' and for some reason i obey her and shove it up my arse... bearing in mind ive never had anything up there in my life- it was the most awful experince ive ever had- but there i was, raping myself with this dildo which i really didnt want up there but for some reason i had to do it... it was really surreal. eventually i managed to cum and ate it as usual, and she brought me out the trance. i said sorry and promised id never do it again- i never wanted anything up my arse again, im really not in any way gay like that. anyway, i guess i shouldnt have gone behind her back, so i deserved it. i didnt really have a choice anyway, i just had to.
anyway, apparently we're gonna try something really horny later in the bedroom- so ill keep you posted on the going-ons. laters